Showing posts with label musings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label musings. Show all posts

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

A Whirlwind: First Reflections Upon Rome

So much has happened in the past couple of days that I'm not sure where to start. I'll do a play by play in a little while, but I'd like to get some of my gut reactions out first before I forget and everything becomes wrapped in a nostalgic haze.

First of all, this trip was one of the most amazing whirlwinds that I've ever experienced. It was at once intensely intellectually and physically stimulating and my mind has yet to wrap itself around all the things that I've seen and felt. The 550+ photos that I took don't begin to describe the true majesty of the city, in the sights, smells, the feel of the cobblestone beneath your aching feet at 2:00 AM, the crick in your neck from not being able to stop looking up at ceiling frescoes and carvings on ridiculously tall columns, the colors, the tastes, the solemness of the pious, and the levity of the people. The city itself is beautiful, a palate of reds and ochers, with a liberal sprinkling of green forests and marble fountains and monuments under a sky blue sky. And the atmosphere is a mix of out-of-their-mind-amazed tourists and a contemporary Italian aura. The culture is so rich, and the art so much that you almost can't take it all in. I couldn't in the short time I was there; every church stunned me to silence; everywhere I turned, another monument, another piazza, another fountain, another gelato stand.

But I aim to remember the entire experience and not just mask it in the awesomeness I have just described. Rome is much more humid than Athens, a humidity I did not appreciate. I never felt quite clean in the four days we were there, and I was always sticky. Rome is a great walking city because there are piazzas with statues and great art everywhere. The regular buildings are beautiful too, and one look down the streets yields great views all around. That being said, walking all over the city took a toll on my legs and feet so that when I got up each morning, I could feel the muscles contracting in protest. Somehow, I also developed a blister on the bottom of my left middle toe, so that I could not walk without it rubbing against my shoe (bandaids and socks helped). We stayed out late, which was fantastic because the city was cool (temperature and degree of awesome) at night, but that made getting up early in the morning harder than I would have liked, and we did so much that my mind was overwhelmed with information all the time. Food was expensive and not that great, to be honest [cheap Greek food is much better than cheap Italian food], and the subway at Termini Station was mindbogglingly inefficient. The bugs loved me a little too much, although they only loved my left leg, but the heat combined with the sticky, sweaty feeling made bug bites that much more itchy.

The good [the beautiful], the bad [the exhaustion], and the smelly [the urine scented trashcans]. Would I go through all of it - the bugs on my legs, the bags under my eyes, and the blisters on my feet - all over again?

Absolutely. Without a doubt. No question.

Before I go to sleep tonight, some thoughts about expectations:

Things that were bigger than I thought they would be:
  1. Colosseum
  2. St. Peter's Basilica (and most other churches. They're all really tall, but St. Peter's takes the cake.)
  3. Sistine Chapel
  4. Augustus's head [and foot and hand] at the Campidoglio
  5. School of Athens (<3 Raphael)
  6. Trevi Fountain
  7. Columns and obelisks
  8. Temples
  9. Termini Station, the train station with something like a mall in it.
  10. Doors. Rome has some buildings, just normal everyday buildings, with really big doors. The door to our hostel was really big, and another hostel even had a smaller door built into the bigger door for easier openings.
Things that were smaller than I thought they would be:
  1. Pieta
  2. Capucchin Crypt
  3. Spanish Steps
  4. The lesser Bernini fountains at the Piazza Navona
  5. A serving size of gelato
  6. The city of Rome itself. Rome is a walking city and many things are pretty close together. From the Vatican to the center of the city is about 5K, so it's possible to walk, but you need to be in pretty good shape. But still, it's smaller than I thought.

And my feelings, encapsulated in this shot taken my first evening.


Thursday, July 1, 2010

Midway Reflections

The date is July 1, 2010.

I am officially halfway through my stay in Athens now, and the Summer of 20 is 1/3 over. Yesterday, as I was buying my monthly metro pass, I had a sudden moment of revelation that a month had already passed. It's a little scary to realize that time is passing so quickly, to know I've already actually been independent for a month, that I've been away from my family and friends, to know that I only have a month left to finish my project, and that I've seen so many amazing things and have had so many amazing experiences in such a short amount of time. During this time, I have felt rejuvenated and broken, uplifted and in despair, validated and helpless. It's a lot of emotions to feel in one month, but it confirms, at least to me, that I'm not a Cyber[wo]man.

Something quite mundane: the weather in Athens has been just wonderful, at least, in my eyes. For the past couple of weeks, it has been thunderstorming on and off. I realize this is due to the global weather changes, but when I lay awake a couple nights ago listening to the thunder and watching the lightning, I felt an intense sense of peace. Maybe it was exhaustion, but since then, I feel like I have grown up a little bit. It's only been a day, you say. Still. This summer. These past couple of years. My whole life. What can I say? As I look back on the things I used to write about, I can still see that girl within me, the one who tried so hard to not let herself get complacent with her happiness, the one always waiting for the other shoe to drop. I wasn't a very trusting teenager; probably a smart move on my part, as I remember what high school was like. But to compensate for that, I was at once overly bubbly and super emo at the same time. I held on too tightly to acquaintances and wouldn't let my true friends in close enough. And I wrote about the most INANE things.

Quotes from younger years:

In the morning, I played tennis for about an hour and then I went to the picnic and played frisbee for a while. I think I had forgotten how fun frisbee was.
Woah! My legs are like jelly from sitting in the car for so long. I should go running....or dancing. Yeah...dancing will ungelly (=P) my legs!! *dances*
 People will say that I don't have to study for the history final tomorrow, but I'm still going to after my break.
I'm not sure what's wrong with me these days. I feel so apathetic towards everything. Nothing interests me anymore. It's like everything's moving so fast and I'm left behind. Time has just disappeared. I'm going to turn 15 [<--points to large red number and the fact that I wrote this 5 years ago] in a couple of weeks and it doesn't feel like I should.

Anyhow, just some reminiscing. I'm thinking that I might restart one of those inane blog things when I get back to school. Just to give me something to rant with or something. I may go back to LJ just because I don't feel like looking up code for current music/mood/location. Something to think about.

Ok this has turned into a "Angela's going to write the first thing that comes into her mind" post, so I'll wrap it up.

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As of now, I'm halfway through and I have completed 50% of the List. Yeah. That's right, baby. You didn't think I would actually go through with it. But I am. :D

My plans for the weekend are to go to dun dun dun....ROMA. That's right. Party with the Italians for awhile. And I'm going with my future roomie, Maria, so we'll get to do some roomie bonding activities. I am super stoked, because although I have not seen nearly enough of Greece, I feel, for my sanity, that I need to get away for a little while. Just from all the drama, and the strikes, and the yelling. This is going to be awesome.

So here's a cheer to a great month had and a great month to come. And if you're reading, you're awesome for sticking with me this far. So cheers to you too. :)

Contemplatively yours,

Angela

Monday, June 7, 2010

Sat/Sun 6.5-6.6: Rainy Days, Beaches, and a Week in Review

It has been a little over a week since I've been in Athens; sometimes, it feels like I've lived here for much longer and sometimes, I cannot believe it's already been a week since I landed. The weekend was a little rainy, but nice and cool and though that put a damper on some people's very insistent plans to go to the beach, everything turned out nice and relaxing. It was a weekend for me to reflect on how far we had all come. I know the streets here now [some of them, the main ones], I've taken the bus to work twice, and I've made six dinners. I've dealt with unsavory people and met some awesome ones, and I've held my own in social situations. I can clothe myself, feed myself, and make sure I go to sleep at a decent hour. What I've found is that I'm capable of making it myself, even in a foreign country, which is a scary thought. Although I can, I'm not sure I'm ready to strike it out on my own yet. Still scared, I suppose.

I have also [re]discovered several things about myself in the few short days I've been here.

  1. I am not a tanner. I don't like to sit in the sun and roast and people who lather themselves in oil and plop themselves under the sun annoy me. If I wanted to see a roast chicken, I'd make one myself and have the satisfaction of eating it. It's just unsavory to watch a person broil themselves on the sand and getting skin cancer. DO NOT WANT. 
  2. I am not a swimmer. I don't like getting water in my mouth and up my nose and, having swallowed sea water before, swimming in the ocean doesn't appeal to me. I have no endurance, can't really tread water, and I'm really short so where the water reaches some people's chests, I'm already swimming. DO NOT WANT.
  3. Items 1& 2 lead me to believe that I am not really a beach person. Sand gets everywhere. Salt gets everywhere. People dump disgusting things into the ocean, esp. if it's next to a big city. You step in holes people make, and trip over bottles people leave, and at the end of the day, even though you've done nothing, you're incredibly tired and hungry ALL THE TIME. If I'm going to darken to the color of a burnt cookie, I'd rather do it doing something, like climbing a mountain or riding a mule. Can't just lie there and bake. However, I do enjoy relaxing under an umbrella with a good book (or a beach book, w/e). The waves on the ocean can be very soothing, and I'll admit that some of the best sunsets and bonfires I've ever been to were on the beach. And beach naps are second to none. But still.
I liken going to the beach to my eating a melon. Usually, I'm not a melon person. I'm not sure what it is about them, but I'm just not fond of them. I'll eat them if they're presented to me and I have no other choice (like on an airplane or at a Chinese person's house), but I will never go seek out a melon by myself. There are times, when I really want to eat a melon, but it goes away soon after I take the first couple of bites, and I remember that I really don't want to get sand in my shorts all that much.

So what are you going to do in Greece if you don't go to the beach??
Greece has plenty of history that doesn't involve getting sand in your sangria. And that's what I'm going to aim to do for most of my trip here, I think. Plus, since coming here, I'm rather leery about revealing any more of myself to Greek men.

The most important thing to take from this, of course, is that it's not really where you go or what you do; it's the people you do it with. I've had awesome times everywhere with my friends, especially in places I wouldn't normally go alone. Whether it be chowing on melons or getting sandy, I'm up for an adventure with people I know will make it awesome. :)

Still finding sand everywhere,

Angela